u know

don’t tell i’m not ok doesn’t mean im not ok
don’t tell i’m ok doesn’t mean im ok
i just don’t say

can’t u c

mmmhhhh

going around the hometown city
welcomed by cool weather
even were…traffic jam n accident on free way on the trip
but never mind
every time …going back here is always fun
moreover being here is soooo muchhh exciting

still wondering ..how n when will i live here
any chance??
hopefully

it’s not easy to be me

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
’bout a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
Well it’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

(is there anyone care for what i feel, what i want hufftttt….
recently hardest time is coming n on and on …..)

still

i can’t c myself to live in this city for my long term plan
i still HOPE to live in my hometown
i don’t need malls (limited number is fine for me though :p
i don’t need skycrapers
i need comfortableness
i want a bit peaceful environment….

in a rush

by blackstreet

It came over me in a rush
When I realized that I love you so much
That sometimes I cry, but I cant tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

How I try to express what’s been troublin’ my mind
But still can’t find the words
But I know that something’s got a hold of me

Baby, some day I’ll find a way to say
just what you mean to me
But if that day never comes along
and you don’t hear this song
I guess you’ll never know that…

And when I say inside, I mean deep
You fill my soul with something I can’t explain
It’s over me

(personal comment : it didn’t come on me in a rush…slowly but i just knew it ..)

surfing again

overview…looking back some figures from the past
it seems they r alrite
even some have no communication b/ us anymore

moreover, knowing some new things
some r getting married soon
some were broke up
some have new gf/bf
some have new babies

life goes on and on

yg lagi happening

n im late to know them
glee..justin bieber,,lady gaga…n pitbul

how to balance unbalance hormone

PHD

what d u think of PHD…any idea..
just got it from wikipedia that Doctor of Philosophy, abbreviated PhD or DPhil, for the Latin philosophiæ doctor, meaning “teacher of philosophy”, is an advanced academic degree awarded by universities. In many English-speaking countries, the PhD is the highest degree one can earn[1] and applies to graduates in a wide array of disciplines in the sciences and humanities. The PhD or equivalent has become a requirement for a career as a university professor or researcher in most fields.

let me tell u what i think
what i have in mind when hearing it
what i see is burden … a heavy responsibility
the more people push me to take it the more i heavier and more complicated task that i should do then
then… a lot of reading n a lot of writing…..u know that one of my weakness is academic writing
i should give more and more effort to be a better writer
whatelse…the higher expectation of me when i am actually on Phd programme itself
as im not that discipline and diligent or whatever and am …really moody student
but the “fun” sight is maybe as an “exciting adventure”
or it could be said “nice escape” ahhaha….
is it really that nice ….
still clueless

so…what d u think

maybe it’s time

to focus on me

none is understand

none is appreciate

none is listening anyway